the day i lost my favorite earrings was the day i lost my heart...

last wednesday, i received a call from norman. i could not believe that he's actually calling me.. we haven't talked for about six months and now he's calling... i was really hesitant to answer his call... but knowing him, made me realized that it must have been so important so i answered his call and he asked me if i could see him... and there i was again, that stupid and so in-love na girl said yes! apparently, he wanted to see me to say goodbye... which is i'm very familiar with that word especially when it comes to him... he's leaving for singapore, he'll be working at jurong bird park which is one of his dreams and he wanted to seek medical help for his eye condition.. it's gonna be hard but as i can see, its for the best... then in an instant, butterflies in my stomach started to flutter everywhere, my hand and feet are so cold and i am really really tensed... i guess only norman can do that to me... for almost four (4) years, he's the only man in my life... seeing him again, brought back all the memories i've been trying to forget for the past six months, ughh what the heck, mahal ko naman 'to eh... bahala na... so he arrived at the zoo, gave him a little tour at the ark... it's so wierd kc we both dont know what to act, are we gonna be like civil or sweet ba?... ahhh ewan... his flight is last saturday at 2:30pm... so at that time, i realized that i only have 2 days to make things special for him... my mind is struggling with my heart, everything is in haze but then again syempre nanalo si heart... so we had dinner at tiendesitas since un ang malapit sa ark and late na rin for restos... syempre we choose an area na tahimik para makapag usap (usap lang hehe) one and a half year na rin kming di nagkikita, and i have to admit na sobrang miss ko na cya, so he made kwento sa lahat lahat ng nangyari sa kanya... i felt bad, coz i wasn't there for him during the lowest point of his life... he's been in  his worst time, the good part though is he now believes in God... sabi ko nga i'm so proud of him... now, i know na kahit di na kmi magkasama at least he turns to God whenever he's in pain... all these years na gray area sa akin if he really did love me, i finally see what was plainly obvious all along, he loved me...he may not show it in a typical way but he has  his own ways to show it... and thats what i love about him... we parted ways many time before that i already lost counting... but i have a great feeling that this will be the last time that we'll be together... thinking such things made me cry every time, but this time i am proud of myself handling this situation... maybe it's a part of me that finally come to senses that i had to let him go na talaga, its has been long overdue but i know its for the best... i finally got to erase my archive inbox of his text messages for almost 4 years.... and it felt good... i know i loved him with all my heart and his my one great love, but i wanted him to be happy this time... now he has a chance to start all over again in a clean slate and as for me, i'm also excited of what life has to come for me... no rush! we decided to meet again last friday, this time, the Power 4 (me, norman, mam stef & kuya dave) is complete... so we meet at SM Mall of Asia hailed a taxi to go at Seaside Restaurant! thanks mam stef sa libre... hehe lagi nman eh... kya libre ang gastos sa mga dates namin ni norman before because of mam stef... so syempre we enjoyed fresh sea foods though i'm not a fan, i loved the tempura! then we went to Ocean Park, para alipustahin hehe... cmon guys, totoo naman, its bitin, the exhibits are not that great... pero i must say amazing tlaga ung tunnel! un lang...and most of all na naiinis ako cause i lost my favorite earrings na bigay ni ria (iya, sorry)  then we decided to go to megamall para maggrocery of things that he will be needing in singapore... my girlfriend instinct is back, since he is so picky at everything, we finished our grocery and shopping for almost 5 hours grabe! Megamall is on Sale that's why they have a million people lurking everywhere... it was a great experience, all these years that we're together it was our first time to shop together... we shopped for a whole outfit for him from shoes, polos, pants, perfume, medicines, toiletries,  socks and even underwear... i will definitely miss it.... every single moment of our time together will be forever in my heart... what we had is something beyond friendship and lovers... it was good and there are no regrets... we hugged and kissed... then he said it... he loves me too....i was really surprised and started to stutter and just said "i know" and smiled at him... it was really hilarious, i have been waiting for him to say that in a long time... sablay pa sa banat!... nway, that what makes it special about us... we may not see each other again... but i know, somewhere and somehow... when we think of each other, we would smile and be glad that it happened and we know that there is someone out there love us unconditionally...